bitter end...

30th May 2010

If today still counted.. it will be 133 days...3192 hours ...191520 minutes ..
the word 520 in the minutes means so much to me... I had been a very bad boyfriend for almost two hundred thousand minutes.. I feel so sorry .. I m not good enough for you ...

When I woke up this morning...
It reminds me about the breakfast and newspaper you've bought...
I won't forget it...
When lunch..I'll think of bintang tujuh mee and maggi goreng plus teh ais/limau ais we always had .
And when night reach... our favourite chicken chop rice from OLD PLACE restaurant...
When I walk towards the car park..You always walked behind me and I'll say 'why u so slow gah'
..whatever i do..whatever i eat and drink...wherever i go...it keep reminds me of u...
I had fried chicken just now for supper... you always tell people my favourite food was fried chicken..tears actually drop from my eyes..but i have to be tough.. my brothers are beside me..i dont wanna make them worried..

Now no one is beside me..
Finally..I can let my tears flows..
I may be rude to you sometimes... But in my heart... I do not mean it...
I'm really sorry.. I dont wanna hurt u more thats why I decided to end our relationship..
I'm really really really sorry bi .. T.T

-abashed -

I would not abbreviate . Safety comes before reaching earlier. This phrase would not ever go away from my mind. I thought we were going to enjoy the movie and have lots of fun throughout the night . Unfortunately, everything went awful . For the first time in my life , I met an accident .



The guy was seriously a jerk! . Stop insulting ! I'm not going to scare you anyway . Yeah of course I was worried at the beginning as you were driving a 7 series BMW . So what?.. Don't think you are so great driving a car like that . Stop telling me what is AUTO-BAVARIA . As if la I'm a guy with no any knowledge . Hate these kind of people !!! ( dont wanna write more on this )



Well, lets talk about something nice .
I'm glad that you was beside me all the time. Without you, I guess I'll drive myself into another accident on my way home =(
I really felt so much care and support from you especially when you hold my hand. You followed me to the police station and I knew you was scared . But because of me, you showed no fear and even spoke to the police . I appreciate and for sure I'll never forget what you have done for me . Don't know what I can do for you but hope you will like this ....


This is only for you ~


In my wildest dreams, you always play the heroin. In my darkest hour of night, you rescue me, you save my life. The hours I spend with you I look upon as sort of a perfumed garden, a dim twilight, and a fountain signing to it...you and you alone make me feel that I am alive...Other men, it is said, have seen angels, but I have seen thee and thou art enough .


ARIGATO GOZAIMAS my special one !!



And for those who ask about how am I doing . I'm glad to say I'm doing fine. Although it will be a long time for me to recover from this incident . But with all the support from you guys I'll try my best to be strong . Thanks for the concern .......Thank you ..



P/s : Nights people ~

Late One....

I would fly you to the moon and back if you'll be . . . . . . if you'll be my baby.

Its 3rd of January 2010 .
It is still the same .

Well, long story but will try to make it a shorter one . Sigh~~

Huh! Okay . I'll start with Genting Highland . Went there for countdown on the night of 31st December . A nice and for sure a memorable one especially being with my brothers and one 'sesat' girl .. haha . There was like a concert going on . All the hotels were fully booked . But luck was with us as we manage to get the parking lot as soon as we reached . Thanks God

p/s : Aunties Uncles . Don't envy . haha ..

The fireworks was termendous . It was like just 50 metres away from us . After that, went to OLDTOWN for supper and as expected , no seats available . Waited for almost 40 minutes . Tiring =(

Overnight in the car . This one . Haha .. No comment . Don't wanna recall .
Hmm.. the following day .


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ARGH... I'm too tired for this..
I don't wanna write already . I hate this kind of feeling .
HATE !!!!!!!!

Nights .......